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An Uprising [May. 27th, 2006|03:40 am]
trip49009
[Current Location |Cloud 9]
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[Current Music |Flyleaf]

Its meghan's birthday tomorrow, she's spending the night qt my moms new house (and gets to sleep with me)... Im so ecited... My mom really like her and so does Steve...Its amazing how much I luv her already...Libbi is so fucked up, and fucking psycho(ok lets delete all the music off his laptop but HIM, and put 7 songs at the begining that she kneww would make me think of her) ... she still has her ways to drive the dagger deeper... I love how she acts like everything is ok, like it does kill her inside, like she doesnt miss me, she is a great actress, class act. She never seizes to amaze me. Never... She's still playing the same old games, I can no longer love her, the libbi I loved is lost... Forever... And I think thats what hurts the most...The fact that she made that last mistake, that slip me apart...She knows... I wish it could have worked but it wont and its time to face it... I hope one day we can be happy... Intell that I will live lif to the fullest, and love the same...And keep giving 110%... To show you that I can do it... I wont stop... One day I will be thanking you for feuling the fire...That all your doing...so keep playing your ridiculas games... I thought you where so much more...Every person diserves a legacy... Few earn it...
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[User Picture]From: trip49009
2006-05-28 10:33 pm (UTC)

Im so hurt... not LMAO

IM sure she loved me, but I think the person thats playing games knows it... and I know it hurt her... it was her that did it...not me... it was her who said, "dont stop things with meghan..." and yet she knows what she's doing, and collin calling meghan to get me to come to "rockets" sounds a lil shady when I can almost hear her saying "We should so call dan and get him to come see me in my dress..." but w/e I showed up, and it hurt like nothing has... and IM not saying things have been easy for me. But the way libbi has acted toward me, made me not wont her back, and that hurts the most... That I wanted to love her, and she crushed it all by being a total bicth, so how about you take your sorry lil fucking attempt "to speak your mind." And oooooooooo you can crack on my spelling, omg im so hurt (lol). The fact is I went through hell after we broke up and I am finally happy... Im sorry it can be with libbi, I just hope one day I can move on...but the way she loves throwing salt in my wounds is abearable, I cryed the other night just thinking to myself "why wont she just leave me alone..." I just want to be able to live, happy, and not feel that pain. So I can spell, this is me, the way I am, and if im such a Deadbeat why do I pull in 124$ dollars min. a week, and I ride my bike to work (which you can think is funny but its not exactlly aropund the fucking corner.) And libbi smokes so many cigs. She would have to take a break half way there. Keep fueling the fire...smile...
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From: (Anonymous)
2006-05-30 04:44 am (UTC)
In response to your subject: it was not my intention to hurt you. I do not purposefully hurt people, unlike some.

What happened between you and Libbi should stay between the two of you. Regardless of how you feel about her now, I know that you loved her at one point and the least you can do is show her some respect and refrain from publicly degrading her and calling her obscenities. If you feel like she's being immature, then be the bigger man and stop this childish contest of "who can hurt the other more" game.
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[User Picture]From: darckritual
2006-05-31 11:17 pm (UTC)

Re: Im so hurt... not LMAO

Just so YOU know it was MY idea to call you but I didnt have your number so I called Meghean to tell you okay? dont go Assuming that Libbi was behind it, I thought we were cool man and i wanted to see you.. but whatever.
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